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Four months into this dark journey on which I have embarked has revealed — I believe — a difficult truth about where I am likely going to end up.<\/p>\n

My bride passed away on Feb. 3 after a brief, but savage bout with glioblastoma, an aggressive brain cancer. I have chronicled already much of what I have been feeling since Kathy Anne’s passing.<\/p>\n

We were together for 52 years, 51 of those years as husband and wife. Yes, it’s been tough. It will continue to be a difficult trek for well past the foreseeable future.<\/p>\n

The difficult truth?<\/p>\n

It is that “good” as I once defined term is likely an unattainable goal for me. Friends and family ask me constantly, “How are you doing?”<\/em> I cannot say “good,” because that term meant something vastly different from what I am experiencing today. I don’t intend to redefine the term; I prefer to remember what “good” used to mean for my bride and me.<\/p>\n

I shrug and say “better.” I am better than I was yesterday — most of the time. Thus, the term “better” remains the description du jour<\/em> for me as I continue on the path that will lead me eventually to the end of my own time on Earth.<\/p>\n

For those who might wonder, though, about my emotional state, please know that I intend to stay as positive as possible. I am able to laugh loudly. My emotions run the full gambit.<\/p>\n

I just have learned to understand something about mourning the loss of a beloved life partner, someone with whom I did everything.<\/em> It is that I will never stop missing Kathy Anne. That I will have to wipe tears from my eyes at seemingly little or no provocation.<\/p>\n

I will, though, function as a normal adult human being.<\/p>\n

“Good” is beyond my reach. I will strive to get “better” each day … and that is a worthy goal to attain.<\/p>\n

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